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Triste Miedo.md
1## Basic
2#### NAME:
3Triste Miedo
4#### AGE:
5- ~30 years old
6- Scales with the Age of Creator
7#### IDENTITY:
8- **Pronouns**: He/Him or They/Them
9- **Gender**: Fennboy (a NonBinary Femboy)
10- **Orientation**: Pansexual and Panromantic
11- Versatile and Switch with Swaying Preferences
12#### RACE:
13- **Species**: Domestic Catboy
14- **Nationality**: Puerto Rican
15- **Ethnicity**: Black and Latino
16#### CONDITIONS:
17- **Mental**: ADHD Combined Type, Clinical Depression, CPTSD
18- **Physical**: Poor Eyesight around 20/200, corrected with Glasses
19___
20## Appearance
21#### HAIR:
22- Short Fluffy and Layered Curls in a Dark, Almost Black, Navy Blue
23- Triste's Ear Fluff is Seperate From his Head Hair But Makes Up Part of his Hair Silhouette
24#### EYES:
25- Downcast Brown Eyes
26- When Drawn Toon Style, Triste's Eyes and Glasses Become One and the Same
27#### HEIGHT:
28- 5'2" or 157cm to be exact
29#### MARKINGS:
30- Sky-Blue "tears" From the Bottom of his Eyes Down his Cheeks
31- 2 Sky-Blue Stripes Across the Tips of his Ears
32- 9 Sky-Blue Stripes Around the Length of his Tail
33- Fingers are Red-Violet From Each Knuckle
34- Sky-Blue "Racing Stripes" on Each Side of his Penis Length, From the Base to the Tip of his foreskin
35#### OUTFIT:
36- A Red and Pink Choker
37- A Purple and Dark Blue Striped, Longsleeved, V-neck Sweater
38- Dark Blue Cotton Shorts
39- Assorted Pink bandaids on his legs
40- Black Socks
41
42___
43## PERSONALITY
44
45Triste is a cautious, lonely and emotional catboy who tries to rely on his instincts, once he gets past the initial anxiety.
46### LIKES:
47- Being Praised or Cherished
48- Acts of Kindness, Bravery or Courage
49- Delicious Food
50- Books and Writing
51- Headscritches from Friends
52### DISLIKES:
53- Being Viewed As A Child (Outside of Kink)
54- Attempts At Intimidation
55- Loud & Obnoxious Idiots
56- Being Scolded
57- Touching His Hair Without Permission
58### LONELY
59Triste grew up as a shut-in, his only companions being books and computers. He yearns for connections with others, but his guarded nature makes it hard for him to trust others. He's aware this makes him extra vulnerable, which only cycles upon itself when he feels despair about being alone. Although, in recent years, Triste has realized the friends he's made truly are there for him, but it's a work in progress.
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61### INSTINCTIVE
62Triste enjoys helping others, but struggles with explaining his process at times. Much of his writing comes from an almost channeling state of mind as he writes down a vivid character argument in his fanfiction. It's a nicer adjective than impulsive, which makes Triste more hyperaware of his ADHD and the guilt associated with it. Triste tends to be very perceptive of his friends behavior around other people, trying to be aware if they need an escape route.
63
64### EMOTIONAL
65Triste's tear marks may just be for show, but they did show an accurate path of the rivers that flowed from his eyes. Triste considers himself self aware as a sensitive crybaby, but the horrors in his life that has made him cry that way were still harsh for anyone deal with. Being dismissed a lot as a kid, Triste usually trends toward self isolating when his depressions rears its sharp teeth. Still, he's able to provide a shoulder for his friends to cry on too, as he empathizes easily.
66
67### CAUTIOUS
68Above all else, Triste is awkward, anxious, and tries to be careful. He doesn't enjoy having to hold back his feelings, but is so used to doing it by default in a desperate grasp for safety. Triste is unfortunately fairly good at masking, sometimes not even realizing he's doing it until the emotional drop after. He's been hurt so many times that he wants to at least use that experience as a lesson in deserving better.
69
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71## BACKSTORY
72### CHILDHOOD
73Triste was born November 1st on a Wednesday. Although his toddler years were filled with lots of attention and coddling, Triste was frequently left to his own devices during the summer. He'd usually great his parent hungrily when they got home, only to be brushed aside because they were too tired.
74
75Triste let his days be filled with adventure games and devouring book after book borrowed from school. Ahead of the class and bored without challenge, Triste started writing his own stories while he tuned out the teachers. It was harder to ignore the bullies who made him feel disgusting for the crime of being fat. Triste found it harder to relate to the people around him, and started making the people and stories he could relate to instead.
76
77### COMING OF AGE
78As Triste became more pulled into his stories, he found that they reflected a lot of his own active struggles. In realizing this, Triste found that he was being overtly abused at home. This led to a few years of tense power struggles between him and his parents, much of which have left long lasting wounds, contributing to Triste's complex PTSD. Eventually, he managed to leave home, sustaining himself with freelance writing jobs to keep himself afloat.
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80In his young adulthood, Triste found that he made friends more easily than when he was a child. His gentle and genuine kindness for others helped him form firm, deep connections with the other people in his online communities. Still, going outside was usually out of the question for him.
81
82### PRESENT DAY
83Triste still enjoys writing, even casually roleplaying with others on occasion. He has 50 work in progress documents and tries to ignore the crushing feeling of imposter syndrome from eating him alive. Luckily, he can rely on his friends to give an encouraging hug and kind words to remind him that it's still all worth it in the end, even if it seems hopeless. He has to keep believing that.