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\date{2026-01-16T05:03:32Z}
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\author{liamoc}
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\title{Why I am not a Roman Catholic}
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\p{I was baptised into the Roman church and confirmed in the faith by a high-ranking prelate in the Church at St. Mary's Cathedral, where I sang in the choir for over a decade. I have attended and sung at traditional Latin masses, I'm very familiar with catholic theology and liturgy, and I even won an award for Catholic studies at my cathedral high school. I love the Latin language, I love the traditions of the Church, particularly its musical tradition, and I love the universality of the Roman church. Still, I left the Church gradually as I became preoccupied with other aspects of my life, and then various pedophilia scandals, including of [the headmaster of my school](https://www.abc.net.au/news/2016-06-10/william-standen-catholic-brother-sentenced-jail-abuse/7501086) and of the [prelate who confirmed me](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/George_Pell#Allegations_of_child_sexual_abuse), were the nails in the coffin. I stopped regularly attending any church.}
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\p{Gradually, particularly after moving to Edinburgh, as I accrued a greater understanding of [my own peculiar mode of belief](loc-0022), I returned to regular churchgoing, but this time at an extremely "Anglo-catholic" Scottish Episcopal church, although I'd still pop into the Edinburgh Jesuit church for a Catholic mass now and again. The main thing that prevented me from wholly returning to Rome (aside from my personal affinity to that SEC church), was that I just couldn't bring myself to assent to the doctrines of the Roman church. While I'm not a fan in general of the Articles of Religion for the Church of England, article XIX has a point:}
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\quote{As the Church of Jerusalem, Alexandria, and Antioch, have erred; so also the Church of Rome hath erred, not only in their living and manner of Ceremonies, but also in matters of Faith.}
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\p{I don't think this point is particularly controversial, even among many lay Roman Catholics. It is hard to say with a straight face that the Church has \em{always} taught the right doctrines and that \em{all} of its authoritative teachings are irreversible, and yet the First Vatican Council effectively commits the Roman Church to precisely that position. Even where infallibility is narrowly defined, the broader assumption remains: that the Church cannot, in any meaningful sense, have been wrong in its teaching. This position is so ludicrous that it seems that recent popes quietly admit that it's not true while upholding continuity of magisterial teaching in public: what looks, in hindsight, like error must always be re-described as development, ambiguity, or misapplication. This makes genuine doctrinal correction (as opposed to "reinterpretation") impossible. }
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\p{So, what would the Roman church have to do to win me back over?}
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\li{\strong{Overturn Vatican I, admit error, and confess wrongdoing}. There is no way that any of the other changes in this list could be made without first admitting that the Church was wrong.}
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\li{\strong{Equality between genders, including for holy orders and the episcopate.} Recalling Galatians 3:28 \em{"In Christ there is no male or female"}, the argument that women cannot act \em{in persona Christi} for the purposes of the sacraments seems ridiculous. As for the episcopate, claiming that the gender of the apostles was \em{theologically} important rather than merely \em{socially convenient} seems completely scripturally and logically unfounded. Of course the apostles were male: the society of the time would have broadly rejected female philosophers, teachers, or evangelists. Their maleness gave them some \em{temporal} authority, but that doesn't mean that their maleness was in any way necessary for their \em{sacramental} authority. And, there's significant evidence that before the Constantinian adoption of Christianity into the Imperial system, early Christians had many female religious leaders, anyway — not least of which is Mary Magdalene, sometimes called Apostle to the Apostles.}
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\li{\strong{Welcome and equality for LGBTQ+ individuals and couples, and apologise for harm done.} There are ministries and pockets of the Church were gay people are welcome, because Christ is always on the side of those who are marginalised and oppressed. But, in general, the Church remains a deeply homophobic and transphobic institution (despite the presence, throughout the Church’s history, of much-lauded figures whose sex lives would sit \em{very} uneasily in the Church’s proscriptive framework). The Church would have to revise its exclusionary attitudes before I would consider fully returning. This would include extending the sacrament of matrimony to gay couples. }
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\li{\strong{Eliminate overscrupulous sin accounting, particularly regarding sexual ethics.} The Church produces elaborate frameworks for evaluating sin, and overformalises what it understands sin to be. In particular, the elaborate framework of sexual ethics based on "natural law" gets really weird fast. I'm not saying that there's no such thing as sinful sexual behaviour, but declaring contraception sinful (as an example) seems both scientifically illiterate and needlessly overproscriptive. The Church shouldn't be in the business of classifying more and more and more human activities into various levels of sinfulness. The fullness of the law is love, not a bureaucratic accounting of how many rules you break. }
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\li{\strong{Distinguish between what is sinful and what ought to be illegal.} The Church has already done this to a certain extent, pushing for the decriminalisation of homosexuality in those places where it is still illegal, but I think this should be applied more generally. For example, while I'm not taking a firm position here, I'd be willing to accept that abortion might be a sin, even a grave sin, at least in most cases. I don't think it should be illegal, however, because the harm that is done seems by most measures far greater when abortion is illegal than when it is legal. Medical grey areas shouldn't invite legal intervention. The same goes for adultery, blasphemy and many other things that can be declared sinful with a lot of scriptural support but nonetheless shouldn't be banned by the state. }
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\li{\strong{Recognise the validity of (most) Anglican orders.} The \em{Apostolicæ curæ} letter of Leo XIII deemed Anglican ordinations invalid because the form and intention of some of the historical ordination rites didn't seem to refer to the sacrificial priesthood that the Roman church maintains. This is clearly a post-hoc rationalisation of the conclusion that he wanted to reach — Anglican orders being invalid — because many of the churches that the Roman Church deems \em{valid}, even the Eastern Rite churches within the Roman church itself, also omit some of the important sacrificial language used by the Roman rite. Apostolic succession can pass just as easily through Edwardine Anglicans as it can pass through Arian heretics during the time of St. Hilary. To reject this succession because the Anglican church erred at some points in its history sounds a lot like Donatism. If the Church does recognise these orders, along with the first two changes in my list, there is very little that stands in the way of reunification of these two faiths.}
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\p{None of these changes that would make a return to Rome conceivable for me can be addressed in isolation, because all of them would require the Church to admit that it has taught wrongly in the past. I'm not holding my breath.}
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\p{Ultimately, what keeps me from swimming back across the Tiber is not any particular point of disagreement but a deeper structural problem: A church that cannot admit having been wrong in matters of faith cannot meaningfully repent, and a church that cannot meaningfully repent cannot convincingly claim to be guided by the Spirit of truth. I continue to love much of what the Roman Church has given me, but I cannot assent to a vision of the Church that treats its own history as something that must always be explained away rather than, at times, confessed.}
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\p{As a postscript, I should add that none of the above should be read as a complaint about the Church’s \em{liturgical} inheritance, which remains one of the great treasures of Western Christianity. If anything, my frustration is that this inheritance is often treated carelessly or instrumentally, either as a battlefield for ideology or as something endlessly malleable (see [[loc-002K]]). The fact is that here in Australia, finding a reverent, beautiful liturgy in a Catholic church is vanishingly rare — mostly limited to the big cathedrals, and those liturgies outside of the \em{novus ordo} milieu: the [personal ordinariates](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Personal_ordinariate) and the FSSP Latin Masses, which have congregations that tend greatly towards far-right reactionary ideology. This is an issue of governance, not doctrine. A Church capable of regulating doctrine in extraordinary detail seems strangely incapable of insisting on reverence, beauty, and care in its public worship. This asymmetry only reinforces the impression of an authority structure that is confident where it should be cautious, and timid where it should be firm. }
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\title{Why I am not an Anglican}
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\p{If I still lived in Scotland, answering the Religion question on a census would be easy (at least, easy modulo [my peculiar mode of belief](loc-0022)): I would simply write "Scottish Episcopalian". The SEC aligns closely with the kind of worship and belief that matters to me — Catholic-style liturgy and theology, reverent sacramental practice, and a progressive, egalitarian, and consistent moral framework. But were I given the same question in Australia, it would be much harder to write "Anglican". The cognate church to the SEC in Australia is fragmented, factionalised, and often incoherent.}
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\p{Were I to tell a Sydneysider that I was an Anglican, I might be mistaken for a member of the dreaded Sydney diocese — fiercely low-church and conservative. They deny women ordination; they discriminate against LGBTQ+ people; they celebrate the Eucharist with no liturgical reverence, while wearing a suit and tie; they pursue schism with the wider Anglican communion. The small Anglo-catholic outposts that survive in Sydney, like Christ Church St. Laurence, are stuck in a constant struggle against the broader diocese. Even St. James King St, which is more distinctly Anglican in its liturgy, is very much at odds with the diocese, which sometimes seems more like an American evangelical "non-denominational" group than a real Anglican diocese. Other dioceses in the Anglican Church of Australia, trying to maintain unity with this bunch of schismatic agitators masquerading as a diocese, pursue a minimal or compromise-driven theology and liturgy. This constant balancing act prevents the church from taking decisive action on ethical issues like women's ordination or LGBTQ+ inclusion, and liturgy, a tremendous source of beauty and devotion, is often sidelined or distorted (see [[loc-002K]]). The more the church compromises to hold itself together, the less coherent and spiritually compelling it becomes. }
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\p{Another difficulty I have with Anglicanism is the Thirty-Nine Articles of Religion. I disagree with several key aspects of the Articles: their emphasis on justification by faith alone, their rejection of purgatory and prayers for the dead, their apparent denial of the physical presence in the Eucharist, and their subordination of tradition to Scripture. In the Anglican Church of Australia, clergy are formally required to assent to the Articles, whereas laity generally are not. In practice, however, even among clergy the Articles are often interpreted loosely or ignored, to maintain unity or suit their own personal theological preferences. While this laxity is fortunate for someone like me who disagrees with many of the Articles, it also highlights the church's structural incoherence and inconsistency in both doctrine and governance. The Oxford Movement offers an interpretation of the Articles which is much more Catholic-leaning and far more agreeable to me, but even so, I do not find myself comfortable with the fundamentally Protestant theology that one would get from a basic reading. The Scottish Episcopal Church, thankfully, does not impose the same subscription anywhere (they abandoned the Articles in 1979, after the Relief Act which enforced their subscription was finally repealed), which is one reason it feels much closer to my ideal. }
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\p{More broadly, the Anglican Communion as a whole lacks a fixed, consistent set of beliefs. In the United States, bishops like John Shelby Spong moved so far away from the faith that they couldn't meaningfully be called Christian, let alone Anglican. In Australia, the aforementioned Sydney Diocese is a hyperconservative low-church enclave in tension with the rest of the Communion. In no sense could these two be said to share the same faith. Across the wider church, there is no guarantee that any given parish or diocese actually adheres to the same theological or moral framework. This absence of a coherent, shared faith makes it difficult to affirm Anglicanism as a whole, even when individual parishes (like CCSL or St. Peter's Eastern Hill) contain aspects I admire.}
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\p{There are parts of Anglicanism that I genuinely appreciate — mostly, those elements that echo the Catholic tradition rather than the Protestant or uniquely Anglican. The more a parish resembles a reverent, sacramental, and theologically coherent Catholic church, the more it appeals to me. In other words, what I value in Anglicanism is what it shares with Catholicism, not what makes it uniquely Anglican, with one massive exception: The Book of Common Prayer. Its beautiful language, Cranmer's excellent translations of Latin collects, the lovely rhythm of its condensed office and psalter, and its theological subtlety are consistently beautiful, and it remains a singular strength of the Anglican tradition. }
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\p{Ultimately, I think my ideal Anglican church would end up looking a lot like [my ideal Catholic church](loc-002W): reverent, sacramental, inclusive, fearlessly progressive, and theologically catholic; without hubristic claims to infallibility, yet undivided by factional squabbles. When I lay it out this way, it doesn't seem like such a church could exist any time soon. Until then, I will remain vaguely a non-Roman Catholic who worships predominantly at Anglican churches, although I have no idea what I'll write on the next census. }
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% The more catholic an anglican church is, the more I like it. So an ideal anglican church would to me be very similar to my ideal catholic church.
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\title{Second Sunday after Epiphany 2026}
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\quote{Omnis terra adóret te, Deus, et psallat tibi: psalmum dicat nómini tuo, Altíssime.}
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\p{This Sunday I sang at my usual [All Saints Ainslie](https://allsaintsainslie.org.au), although the choir is still on break. Instead, our soprano Cindy Chen (who played the organ for the hymns) joined me for singing Prätorius' uncommon piece [Christe der du bist Tag und Licht](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=otx6qo7QcI0) (translation is mine): }
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\quote{
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\td{Christe der du bist tag und licht,}
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\td{O Christ, thou art both day and light,}
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\td{Vor dir ist, Herr, verborgen nicht;}
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\td{For there is, Lord, naught hid from thee;}
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\td{Du väterliches Lichtes glanz,}
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\td{Thy fatherly light upon us shine,}
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\td{Lehr' uns den Weg der Wahrheit ganz.}
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\td{Teach us thy way of perfect truth.}
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\p{Cindy and I sang it well, despite many tricky bits!}
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\title{Weeknotes 2026-W03}
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\date{2026-01-18}
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\p{This week has mostly been spent catching up with work and preparing for my Edinburgh trip.}
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