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covid burnout
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title: COVID Burnout
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date: 2021-09-25
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NOTE: This was written out in
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[longhand](https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1441842150824718337?s=21)
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in my diary. This post was converted to text using iPadOS 15's handwriting to
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text recognition. I hope I have cleared up all of the major errors in the
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conversion. My handwriting is horrible.
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I am an introvert. I usually spend a lot of time in my cave. most of my work was
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alreary done remotely, when I first found out about the COVID-19 pandemic, I
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thought there would be at most 4-8 weeks of hardcore lockdown and then it would
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die out. Then life would go back to normal and I would be able to see my friends
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at conventions during the summer.
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As of the time of writing this post, it is currently the 84th week OF COVID
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being a major presence in how I handle daily life. I am exhausted, I was
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scheduled to give talks at two conventions that were canceled, meet ups with
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friends at places across the us and Canada were postponed into oblivion. My
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relationship with my parents has fractured into no-contact. I feel powerless to
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do anything more to stop this.
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I am the most connected I have ever been and I am the lonliest I have ever been.
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Most of the people I talk to are people I have never met in person, even my
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coworkers. My manager is someone I talk with near daily yet have never seen
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without the aid of video conferencing.
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This is exhausting. I hate it. My Netflix queue is empty. I feel so alone.
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This post doesn't have a message or moral.